Today marks six months since our dearest Laura passed away.
There hasn't been a day when I haven't thought about her; how her jokes used to make me laugh, how her encouraging words always made me feel better, and how her general sense of fun and joy made everyone's lives brighter. There was one memory in particular where Laura, Allan and I would sit in Mom's living room and write all sorts of silly songs. At one point I was noodling on the piano and Laura started doing this goofy impromptu tap dance for about three minutes.
In a week Allan, Mom, Dad and I will be visiting her two wonderful children, Brad and Wes. I'm hoping we'll have a good time, though there's no doubt that Laura's presence will be missed by everyone. I know there are so many things I still wish I could tell her and many things that I wish she could see.
Unfortunately, it looks like the book is on hold. I haven't been able to work on it properly. Every time I start, I freeze up and can't continue. Maybe it's too soon. Maybe I just need more time to heal. I apologize to everyone who had been looking forward to the book. It is still on track, because it's something I still want to do, but it may take a little longer while I continue to process this.
I was advised to be kind to myself and to take all the time I needed. I have a hard time forgiving myself for anything, so I'm hoping everyone else will be understanding. Be aware I have not forgotten her. Be aware I want to create something that reveres her memory properly.
I will continue to post here as regularly as possible. At the very least I'd like to share pictures and stories, and maybe piece together the book as I go.
We love you, Laura. All of us wish you were here, and none of us will ever forget you.
